Should have done better,

at least it looks like he is picking up the slack.

Yay!

So, for the longest time I have wanted to work my T.V. as a computer monitor. Ever since a saw it years ago I thought it was the coolest thing. Now, it is a reality! I lucked into a new T.V. through Kayla and bought the cords I needed to set up computer and then bought a wireless keyboard and mouse. This is easily the coolest thing I have ever had!

Driscoll

Mark Driscoll is a smart dude. I can't stop listening to his podcast and reading his book. If anyone ever starts following this you need to check him out. Good strong biblical teaching delivered in a way that is applicable and practice to anyone, at any stage in their walk with Chris. If am called to a church, I hope my sermons have that kind of impact and are that powerful.

Baseball, IT'S FANTASTIC!

I don't know. Just something about baseball gets me. Its not the most physical sport, or the most physically demanding, I know. But something about it has more intensity, drama, and competition then any football game or basketball game put together. Nothing gets a crowd on their feet, gasping in anticipation like a ball hit high in the air, the center fielder backed against the wall and helplessly watching as another ball flies beyond the reach of his glove. I dare you to find a more dramatic and heart pounding then bottom of the ninth, 2 outs, down by a run, 2 runners on, 3-2 count, the 3 hitter is batting, and the star closer is on the mound. Both know what they need, and now it just comes down to who wants it more. I love baseball.

Reality set in, and it sucks.

I had everything I ever needed and I let it go. I expected more from you then I ever should have. It wasn't right for me to ask so much from you, and give so little. We both wanted the same thing but for whatever reason decided not to see it and gave you away for the next lucky soul. I had my chances, and know I probably wont get another. I'm slowly coming to terms with that. I just hope that whoever is lucky enough to earn your love will treat you and love you the way I should have. If you ever see this, I don't expected another chance, not because I don't want it, but because I don't deserve it. This isn't a pity party, or a love letter. Just the realizations of a sad and lonely guy.

You know what you be awesome?

If I could just get up the courage to do it.


Yep, that would be awesome.

2nd

So all day long the history channel has been running shows about all the different ways mother nature can pimp slap New York City....I love the History Channel ha ha.

So me and God had a pretty hard core heart to heart last night. I feel like I'm on the right track now but that changes so often there is no telling how I will feel in a few days. I just don't feel qualified to pull off what I feel like he is asking me too. I have never been able to really see myself as a pastor, or doing anything that involves talking in front of people all the time. Its not like I'm afraid of being in front of people. I just don't understand why anyone would listen to anything I have to say. Meh, oh well. I'll just stop worrying about it. Like I do everything else.

It does tend to repeat itself

So...I decided I was going to start a blog, and was surprised to find that my old one was still up and going. I could have swore I deleted it but its not like I care. So this time I think I'm going to actually continue and use this one. Last time I only posted funny thoughts and interesting things that happen because everyone else was so depressing because of the constant bickering and emo-ness of people who had nothing to complain about but chose to for the sake of getting attention. Needless to say, this will be interesting. Nothing held back for once.